Just a Rambling
- lovesdivinehealing
- Jun 16, 2023
- 2 min read
This is a ramble of feelings. I am practicing this new thing where I just write without trying to make sense of what I'm saying, no goal in mind other than to feel better.
The world can be a cruel place. And when I get my hopes I get them really high. So the come down is always…harsh. I feel irrational and start to spiral a little bit. I feel like how I feel is unwarranted. Like I shouldn't feel lost, emotional, confused. I start to feel like I shouldn't need support, ask for it, depend on it. Like I'm alone on an island that I didn't create but made to feel like I had a choice in how the island made me feel. I feel isolated. I feel crazy for wanting to vent, get advice, be told that how I feel makes sense. Who wouldn't feel this way? In these moments I want to validate my feelings but I don't know how to. I know what to say but it feels wrong. It feels wrong to tell myself it's okay. It feels wrong to tell myself I might be making a mountain out of a moleHill because, what if it is a mountain. What's the difference if I don't know the outcome? I guess the goal is detaching from one truth to accept multiple truths. Things don't have to be the one way. What I can control is my outlook, and how I feel about the world around me. And if I feel like it's cruel in one moment, then it is cruel. Doesn't mean that I have to stop loving life when I'm scared. I can allow for every moment to be different. The world in my mind is what I create it to be. So if I imagine a mountain to be a moleHill, then that is my choice. And I can be okay with that. Or at least learn to be!
So to anyone struggling with accepting how you feel, just know it's okay. Your feelings are your choice, but try not to close yourself out to the possibilities. Live moment to moment. Every second is a new chance for something different.
As always thank you so much for making it this far in my journey, you are appreciated ❣️❣️
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Why we be feeling the same 😩 I just constantly keep telling myself, no matter how I feel, no matter how many times I mess up that I am enough for everything that I desire and I’m passionate about. I’m learning to let myself feel the things that I feel and deal with them as they come and not hold them in anymore. Thank you so much for this.